in silence tears

Its a Friday night,we are 2 metres apart but its seems like we are hours apart.We are online together like a long distance relationship,some times we watch the same clip on youtube and talk about it but its never face to face.I rushed home from work to cook and tidy the house as usual,and yes,I was greeted with smiles and hugs as the aroma filled up the kitchen.He told me he felt great like a master,which is exactly what I wanted.And,he went out upoon my request to buy coke as somehow he felt gulity returning home with his beer only.

9 o'clock-he was at his computer.10...11...12...n still he is at his computer.

Right now...........I am totally bored,no point rushing home to do a good meal and hoping to spend time with him when he wants to spend time with his computer.I really want to walk out now,missed the proposed shopping trip by my girlfriend and I have more girlfriends at Zouk now.However ,I am not going to walk out and head for Zouk,I do not want to create a presidence for cold war and walking out of the door.Tears rolled down my eyes but he will never see it .Why? Because they are not on the computer screen.Let me evaporate the loneliness in cigers.


A Rose in the Wind (By Anggun)

I was born at daybreak
To the road I did take
Trembling as the ground shakes
Under my feet
Cracked in the stone heat
Never ending motion
Way across the ocean
Into your devotion
Long have I gone
So far from my home
What to do with this love that I'm in?
I have given you all of my soul
Flying all my life like a rose in the wind
Tell me why I am always alone
On my way home
Dreaming always begins
Find a door that's opening
Something there is shining
The light in your eyes
When you were all mine
All alone as I wake
Moving in a new place
Shivering as I trace
A road of my own
Cut by the deep cold
What to do with this love that I'm in?
I have given you all of my soul
Flying all my life like a rose in the wind
Tell me why I am always alone
Hang on to me tight, and a rose in the wind
Will be with you wherever you go
All the way back home
Can I take you back there?
Drifting on the warm air
Say you'll follow anywhere
All of our nights
Into the jade skies
I'll be true to you
Flying over the moon
Lying in the bamboo
I'll always know
The light in the window
What to do with this love that I'm in?
I have given you all of my soul
Flying all my life like a rose in the wind
Tell me why I am always alone
alone